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Happy Pride Month everyone!

Last year my plan was to watch more queer films and series during June but i kinda had a mental breakdown and wasn't able to lol. But this year i'm in a better condition and have some interesting works on my watchlist, so i can say with more confidence that i'm going to succeed this year!



This week I finished the Japanese BL "Our Dining Table". It's 10 episodes on Gagaoolala. It was truly a comfort watch. Series where found family and food play an important role. Loved it. It really moved me. I remember last summer i watched the Thai BL "Moonlight Chicken", which revolved around a restaurant and it was also a very nice comfort story. I realized i'm not in the right headspace for the psychosexual dramas i'm usually into. It's nice to watch something different for a change. 


Currently watching:

- New Netflix K-drama "Our Unwritten Seoul".
I said in my review for Mr. Plankton that i rarely get interested in k-dramas nowadays but luckily there are exceptions like this drama. It's about the interconnected lives of twins, identity, growing up, surviving in capitalism, secrets, failure, workplace bullying etc. It also has some romance but it's not the main plot. Just the right amount relatable,deep,escapist, and funny.

Those two series have really made me think about my own life and living authentically as an adult. The BL is more about loneliness, family issues, and loss and the K-drama also touches on those as well as about social pressures and the life of an unemployed failure and an overachiever/burn-out.

Other stuff:

+ Interested to check out new Chinese BL "Moon and Dust".

+ Also the second season of J-GL "Ayaka is in love with Hiroko" will start airing on June 26th!

+ I decided I will continue the South-Korean lesbian dating reality ToGetHer since it's now legally watchable on Gagaoolala with proper subtitles. Still confused about the drama between the 2 contestant off camera, but i'm still interested to see what happens to the other contestants.

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I had somehow completely missed this news that came out 3 months ago:
My first "BL" I was obsessed with  No.6 is getting a sequel!
What a coincidence because I recently started rewatching the anime. I actually read the fan translation of the novel back in the day and I've been wishing for Seven Seas to officially publish it.

The sequel  takes place 2 years after the main story. Apparently the first volume was published just few days ago! There's already a fan translation up!

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Japanese/Gagaoolala/8 episodes
cw: csa, sex trafficking, violence


Based of a 3-volume manga(which has been officially published in English btw). I read the first volume at the start of the year and really liked it so I was pleasantly suprised that there was gonna be a live action.

It's a story of two traumatized people living in the margins of society who happen to find each other. Their relationship at the start is more on the toxic side but it grows into a very beautiful love story.

I really enjoyed watching this although some parts were hard to watch. The more traumatizing parts aren't done in an exploitative way. It's interesting how the story is partly set in a criminal world but it still has a slice-of-life vibe to it.



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I'd like to analyze something that Jinx hasn't had (much) in the story yet: Jaekyung's POV.

  • The story is told from Dan's perspective, so naturally the reader has more sympathy towards Dan. Clearly Dan is the one who suffers in the story. Jaekyung's impulsive nature, anger, and high sex drive are something that are still a bit mystery.
  • Many readers are waiting for the explanation for his toxic behavior. Many readers are looking for him to "turn to a green flag". Readers love "tame the beast" type of story in romance. Mingwa has said this to be a classic story, so it will be possible it takes this route. But so far there is not character development with 50+ chapters in the story.
  • In Mingwa's earlier work BJ Alex the toxic top Jiwon also goes through flasbacks that explain his shitty behavior and through separation arch he realizes his feelings. At the end of the story he is a changed man. Some readers speculate that Jinx will take the same route because there are some similarities with the stories. However I'm doubtful of that.
  • Will there be a tragic backstory? In the last chapters it was revealed that his opponent Junmin has met him before and said to hi

This put Jaekyung's under a lot of stress. I believe this exhange clearly shows that Jaekyung's has had a troubled childhood. To me it's clear that his avoidance of emotion and cold nature is a result of some kind of trauma.

  • Will there be a regret arch or separation arch? I feel that now (ch. 51) we are going through some kind of introspection. Jaekyung's processing the fact that Dan might have betrayed him. In my interpretation it is miracle to Jaekyung why Dan hasn't left him before and has tried avoiding that by making him financially dependent on him. Their very first encounter starts as a transaction. Jaekyung's past lovers have been paid to have sex with him (as far as we know). He clearly has issues with intimacy. I feel that it is a miracle to Jaekyung that Dan has stayed with him. Jaekyung has broken his boundaries and played with him however he wants and Dan has submitted to him. I think one part of Jaekyung expects Dan to betray him at one point. Him ignoring Dan's feelings and doing what he wants separates himself from human connection. It might be one type of self harm to treat people shitty and be seemingly okay that they don't like you.
  • I believe Jaekyung's backstory will be tied to how he feels like he has to be the dominant one, the winner, the Emperor. I wish the backstory would give Jaekyung some character depth because usually very dominant and independent people have gone through something abusive and they have been forced to be in a submissive role. I talked previously how this work has BDSM undertones and how Jae's dominance plays a big part of his character. I would say he already has character depth because we have already seen him under a lot of stress and him contemplating why he is so obsessed with Dan.
  • Jaekyung is hard to read, he has a poker face. He simply does not show much emotion except for anger and lust. He is an emotionally detached man. This is what I find interesting about Jinx and Jae's character. How does such a cold character show love? Or even realize he's in love? I don't think we're ever going to see him as a super loving character because he has repressed so much of himself. He shows his emotions thorugh action. And with Dan the action so far in the story is possessiveness.
  • So many of the so called Jinx fans just straight up hate Jaekyung. I'm pretty sure everyone's minds will turn once we get his backstory. Jinx is a slowburn and people just don't seem to be patient enough for it and show their frustration in the fandom. I'm dissapointed in this because I really like Jaekyung's character. I also enjoy that his character is a bit of a mystery. He portrays himself as the dominant one, but that is only the part of himself he shows to other people (and the reader). I feel that many readers would enjoy the story more if the could sympathize more with Jaekyung. But some people need to be reminded that this story is not for everyone and Jaekyung's not the typical perfect loving top many readers would like to have for themselves.


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Love Senior

Cute college GL! It has the senior-junior relationship that's common in yuri. This is my first Thai GL and I'm excited for all the works that are coming in 2024!


Pit Babe

I picked this up because it's the first omegaverse tv show! It centers around car racing (not something I'm super into) between an alpha x alpha couple. There's a lot of drama going on in this show.

Chaser Game W

My new favorite GL! This one is Japanese. It's an friends to enemies to lovers between a boss and an employee who are former lovers. I love their dynamic so much and the actresses are so beautiful!

My Name

I picked this up because it has two things I love: Han So Hee and female revenge.



Cherry Magic

I'm so glad Cherry Magic got an anime! I've seen the Japanese BL version of it but I'm actually enjoying this anime even more!
Office dramas might be my new favorite genre.




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After watching the Ai No Kusabi OVA, I decided to read the book series. It's my first time diving deeper into a classic old school yaoi from 80's. As a fan of the cyberpunk genre and BDSM romance I was happy to discover this dark story.

(Spoilers below/tw for discussion about dubcon/noncon)

  • What I love about AnK is that it is a full fledged BDSM fantasy. Riki and Iason's BDSM relationship dynamic is based on their roles in the dystopian world: Master-Pet, Mongrel-Blondy, Human-Machine, Man-Man(which is the least taboo of them.) These intersections are what I find interesting in their relationship that keeps changing and regardless of strong power dynamic their relationship is far from simple: it both fulfills and escapes those roles they have. They both think they know what they want (Iason only lust, Riki escapes it), but their relationship blooms from a sexual one to a romantic one - which challenges the notions of the world/power structures they live in.
  • What is a sadomaschoist romance? As I said before, this is a full fledged BDSM fantasy & a dystopia with a sadist-masocist/pet-master relationship (unlike some self-aware modern bdsm romance I have read where both parties aknowledge that they are playing these parts.) There is both noncon and dubcon in the work. Mostly the classical "he wants it but can't admit it" -dynamic found in smut. What I love about a great bdsm story is that it delves deep into that dynamic. In one beautiful line in the book: "There was desire, then there was passion. Ablaze, it knew no limits." Pain becomes pleasure. Sadism becomes a form of love.
  • In my opinion the most interesting intersection of their relationship is the human-machine part. What Iason feels compelling about Riki is is humaness, which in turn makes Iason more human-like.
  • Cyberpunk world/technofascist society is what really captivated me in the story. I was able to fully immerse myself in their world.

The novel itself wasn't written in the best way but it got better each novel. I was devastated by the ending although I knew it was not a happy one.
 

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This is the second part of the Dark Rise trilogy. It's a queer young adult fantasy novel. It's by C.S Pacat and I absolutely loved her Captive Prince romance trilogy so I picked up this book a year ago although it's YA which I never read. I have to admit I binge read it so I don't remember every detail but I will absolutely read it again.

Few things I really loved about this book:

- The romance.The protagonist Will is guilt-ridden with dark secrets and dominant tendencies fearing he will corrupt his love interest James like he has in his last life. So he holds himself back...he has so much repressed energy waiting to burst and James is waiting for him ready to submit to him! The romance has strong bdsm vibes which is very suprising for a YA story although nothing explicit happens the tension is very strong!

- Who is good and who is bad & How past dictates us. At the heart of this story is the question surrounding fate: how the past will be relived. Both dark and light forces have come to alive in a new time in new bodies. Will everything go exactly how it went the last time? Is good or bad something that we are born, is it our fate or is it how we decide to act? Are good and bad such simple concepts really? Will does everything to be good but he is drawn to dark forces constantly and even without trying he acts according to it. He hasn't done anything bad except for being born. James as his dark companion on a lonely road also makes their romance so lovely and angsty in a way that makes the middle schooler in me squirm.


I absolutely love C.S Pacat's writing! It inspires me to become a better writer.

4/5 stars


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13 episodes + bonus movie on Crunchyroll

I was looking for something chill to watch so I decided to give Sasaki and Miyano a try. It's been called the Heartstopper of BL so I knew I wasn't exactly the target audience for it. It's a very slice-of-life friends to lovers teenage romance which I'm usually not a fan of but I was looking for something wholesome to watch. I have to admit it's a little bit too cute to my taste but I like the slowburn how their romance unfolds during the story. I love both Sasaki and Miyano as characters. Sasaki especially is a bit like Hua Cheng as a cool seme (although it's not confirmed who's the uke and seme as the anime discusses these tropes...but according to the character design it's obvious BUT that's only my interpretation).

As I wrote on my tumblr: It's refreshing to read a wholesome romance like Tgcf and Sasaki and Miyano. The seme is not a typical rapey obsessive mind controller. But that doesn't mean they don't deal with similar feelings: both Sasaki and Hua Cheng constantly hold themselves back because they cherish their loved ones and want to act consentually. They do get lustful, jealous, and possessive but choose not to lash out that energy towards their loved ones. I think both are stories with wholesome pure love, and although i tend to enjoy darker stories this type of consensual and loving dynamic is very important for me as well. I usually engage with darker content because it seems more realistic for me and the type with pure love actually make me sadder because they are more unrealistic. It's not easy to find or become as devoted lover as Sasaki or Hua Cheng.

Overall it was a cute show!

4/5 stars
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by Greensea, Zoy,
65 chapters
Lezhin


This was recommended on tumblr and apparently it has the same writer as Pearl Boy!
I had read a lot of manwhas with dark topics so I picked this up in hopes to read something lighthearted and wholesome.
But I was suprised because this story has twists and turns I had not expected from it. I was stressed!

It's set in the 80's and the couple is nerd x high school dropout artist. The manwha deals with homophobia and a secret relationship the couple meets at a secret gay hang out spot (Anemone theater). The main character Sungho has an abusive father who is the reason why the Sungho is so stressed about school and sees it as the most important part of his life. How can a nerd fall in love? Especially with a man! Gay culture is still underground and marginalized in contrast to the prestige of medical school and the good life the Sungho's father wants him to have.

It's a sex first feelings later type of romance. There is also a "i have to have sex to cure my illness" -triope which I love. The love interest, Duk-Gwang, could be cathegorized as a cool seme. He challenges Sungho in his perfectionism and social reclusion to let go and have some fun in life. They are both very independent and stubborn characters.The romance gets better during the story until the very end.

(spoilers below)

The twists in this story deal with the second season which suddenly out of nowhere introduce a love rival and the romance turns into a love triangle. I really hated that part of the plot but it kept me interested in the story I have to admit. TW: In third season the stress was not over. Unfortunately this manwha has a rape scene(although it was left open if it happened really or was it just a dream, either way there is a graphic scene). The main enemy and cause of drama on this story is the strict homophobic father. The last part of the story is an eight year time skip. First I hated the idea but I acually liked how it turned out. Sungho battled to his adulthood with expectations from his father. To be queer is to defy norms. The main character is a comformist and this poses the main dilemma in the story. Luckily, this story had a happy ending but it kept me on the edge until the end. Some of the plot points could have been executed better but regardless I liked the main couple and the overall vibes of the story.


4/5 stars


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It's been a week since Painter of the Night finished. It was the first bl manwha I read and introduced me to the world of manwha. Although I've found some really great manwha that I enjoy (ENNEAD specifically) there are no other stories that can fully compare to the brilliance of Potn. It's top notch in art, characterization and storyline.

Some things I really loved about Potn:

- The art style! I love how candle lights and shadows show in the character's faces, it makes a very intimate feeling. Other thing is the facial experessions that are so good I haven't found another manwha or manga that does it so well.
- Seungho's character arc. I love how he changes for Nakyum. Although he could be classified at least in the beginning as a stereotypical problematic seme, I actually love how his character isn't just an asshole but an insane person who lives and fucks out of spite. His attachment to Nakyum is what I also love, he is very possessive over him which is a trope I love.
- Dealing with homophobia. Both Nakyum and Seungho have suffered homophobia from their father figures. For Seungho specifically, it is the reason why he is so traumatized and insane. Sexual freedom is actually at the heart of this story which I really love and it makes the story realistic although it is a historical drama. This is why I think the smut also plays an important part in the story. Sex is forbidden for them but regardless they enjoy each other's bodies and fall in love. They are faced with many enemies in the story but the final ones are their father figures they have to defeat in order to live with each other.
- Master-peasant dynamic. I love romance that explores characters with different backgrounds that fall in love. In Potn we have class difference. It plays a more important part in the beginning but as the characters fall in love their differences don't matter as much as the environment that tries to rip them apart. It has the us against others type of dynamic I love. Again and again throughout the story people try to sabotage and murder them but luckily in the end Seungho and Nakyum end up happily together despite all the resistance towards their relationship they faced. A love worthy to fight for! Love that changes!




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Since I finished this story, I was left a bit sad (and maybe unsatisfied )by the violent and bittersweet ending. The tone shift from the beginning is huge, as the author says S1 is more comical and the story gets darker as it progresses. But the comical and loving moments between Jooha and Dooshik are at the heart of Pearl Boy; to love despite the darkness.

(Spoilers below/Talk about the ending)


The final season takes place in Seoul, far from the coastal city from the beginning of the story, which Dooshik has escaped because of his troubles in Seoul. In the end of the story, the roles are reversed; they have returned to Seoul because Jooha's home is unsafe. They are further away from the sea, where their first meeting takes place. The sea is an interesting part of the story as it is part of Jooha's nonhuman features as is his family's seafood restaurant. Nature plays an interesting part in this story symbolizing home,love, income and Jooha's condition, although used mainly as a sexy vechicle in the story, Jooha's pearls symbolize his abnormal beauty and what value humans see in it. As human tend to do with nature, they want to conquer it and profit off it as it is in Jooha's case. Dooshik becomes his savior as he sees Jooha's feature a beautiful and valuable on its own.

In dark romance there is usually two types of stories: I want to lock you up (sadistic) or I want to lock you up (protective). In Pearl Boy, Dooshik is the latter one protecting Jooha from the first one: Pilwon. The main romance is between the abuser and his savior, not the perpetrator of abuse. This is also why many readers love this story despite it being dark, the main couple is not "toxic" as in typical dark romances. This does not mean that Dooshik is an innocent character. I personally hate reducing stories into "red flags" and "green flags" as some (maybe very young) people on fandom tend to do. Dooshik as a savior character bears much responsibility in the story: can his love "cure" the abuse Jooha has suffered? Can he revenge his abusers? How can he become a more impactful figure than Pilwon in Jooha's life? These are some issues Dooshik deals with in the story and specifically deals with in the end of the story as it gets more violent and Jooha gets abused again (making Dooshik feel like he has failed protecting him). In one scene, Dooshik's protective behavior takes a darker turn and parallels Pilwon's attitude in Jooha's eyes. I think that scene shows how protectivness can turn to abuse: wanting to own your lover despite what he thinks. But in this case, it was only a emotional moment and not a turn of character for Dooshik. His frustration of being unable to protect Jooha turns into violence towards his perpetrators; in this case the twins.

But why it isn't Pilwon who get killed by them? In the end, I think instead of torturing him the story gives a more satisfying answer. Pilwon gives them two options but Jooha choose a third option: his own in which he dies together with Dooshik. That way he creates his own reality and does not bend to Pilwon's will as he has throughout the abuse.

The story is not psychological in its nature, but it deals with trauma and abuse. We get flashbacks throught the story and the whole story is about how Jooha wants to avoid those things happening to him again. I think this is why the amnesia ending is an interesting decision, as it plays into how trauma works like a circle. They get temporarily a new clean beginning where the traumatic past does not exist. Victims of trauma are often unable to remember their trauma and sometimes they do only remember parts of it or certain triggers cause them to remember. In in the ending of Pearl Boy, returning to water works as a trigger for Jooha to remember. I would love a more psychological sidestory(or just a fic) of Dooshik and Jooha just living their ordinary lives and dealing with trauma because that is another battle to conquer.

How do you end a story that deals with with sex trafficing? Will the abused get revenge? Will they get a happy ending? Thinking about other similar dark stories usually get dark endings because there is no way out of the scene of organized crime. There is no happy ending, only happy moments, some light in the darkness. In some parts of the story, death might seem a happier end than living. Is it realistic? Yes. Will it make the reader happy? No. But stories don't have to be realistic nor make readers happy. I think Pearl Boy's ending is both happy and sad. You can't take away the trauma but what is most important is that love is stronger.
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(this is a repost from my tumblr)

I got obsessed with the hottest manwha of the day. The fandom especially on tiktok is going crazy and the work has received a lot of love and hate. I'd like to examine some thoughts about tiktok fandom and jaedan dynamic and what makes it so addictive and controversial (to some.)

"Toxic bl" "Red flag", To some young readers Jinx seems to be the first yaoi they are reading. It might have the killing stalking effect, it has shock value and people read it even though they hate it. It has the typical seme-uke dynamic from their character design to the plot as the wholesome virgin uke being in debt and the rich sex-crazy seme. Dan suffers physically, economically and emotionally in life and in the hands of Jaekyung. The dynamic is far from equal. Will it eventually become one? Will Dan's suffering be ever equal to Jaekyung's? This is what keeps the story interesting.

I think it's not contradictory that Jinx is popular in the time when two things in love are considered important: communication and consent. This is where the critique comes from. Jinx lacks both but is still hugely popular(but so are many heterosexual romances in this category: "Oh no what if a popular rich man had to have sex with me and fell in love with me even though I'm a poor virgin".) I think the taboo of it draws in, and Jinx being a yaoi as a genre it is somewhat still considered taboo although modern western fandoms might not think so(conversations around lgbt+ rights, respectability politics, representation etc Everything is very visible and has to seek approval from everyone. Where does sex fit into this?)

Debate of the fandom nowdays: fiction=reality? I have seen comments comparing Jaekyung (and his fans) to a real-life rapists and murderers. I think the topic of fiction affecting reality is interesting and nuanced but what matters here is the context: this work is part of a niche genre and audience. I also think that some people should stay away from smut. They lack literacy both in fiction and sexuality.

BDSM, violence, coersion and transaction as part of romance: Here is also the "classic yaoi" dynamic: the BDSM undertones, that in some fan theories will come play a bigger part of the plot and Jaekyung's character. The power dynamic is supposed to be unequal in such fantasies. It's not for everyone. The thing about dark topics/dynamics is that they catch the attention of the reader. Sometimes they are more psychological and sometimes it's just for the smut and gore. I'm interested to see how in depth Jinx will deal with these topics. So far it has been highly entertaining with constant suprises and cliffhangers.

"Who will fall first? Who will fall harder?". Jakeyung has already fallen for Dan but he does not realize that yet. He shows his feelings through possessiveness. He is an emotionally detached workaholic. He deals with stress through sex and that way Dan is his savior as well. He also represents something different, something genuine to him compared to his previous partners. Dan also has feelings for Jaekyung as he worries and cares for him. I think they will continue to communicate their feelings for each other through sex(/bdsm) and protecting each other in difficult situations in life.

I think Mingwa has crafted a very addicting story and I'm interested to see where this story goes. It might be a tropey romance but sometimes that's what you need.

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